The real challenge with my writing: myself
May 20, 2011 — 4 Comments
As I write this, a nagging voice keeps telling me that I should be working on brochure copy or web copy for my clients. It’s true: I did book a very heavy workload this month. But something’s different. I’m finally starting to treat my own writing with the same importance as my paid copywriting projects. There’s still room for improvement, but I’m getting closer.
Since last November, I’ve been struggling with this. It hasn’t been about balance—it’s been about making room for my own writing, period. Given the momentum I gained last summer and early Fall, it’s heartbreaking that I let go of my work-in-progress and my blog for nearly six months.
So how did I start making changes? I asked for help, something that’s not easy for me. In the past, I relied on classes when I was stuck, but that’s not what I needed. I was looking to make sustainable changes and get myself back on track, so I signed up for Lisa Romeo’s I Should Be Writing Boot Camp. Even after I paid for the class, I was skeptical. And then, within a week or two of Boot Camp, something amazing happened: I started writing again.
Lisa’s Boot Camp made a huge impact for me and I highly recommend it. She gave me a fresh perspective and it was through working with her that I had a huge “aha.” There’s a difference between adding writing weekly goals to my to-do list and actually making real, daily changes to create more room—time—for my writing. Of course, I realized that only after over-booking myself in May but it’s a lesson I’m already applying to June. It’s not going to be easy, but I’m committed to making it work.
What about you? Have you ever lost sight of your writing goals? How did you get back on track?
In response to someone encouraging me to meditate, I found myself saying that it was really hard for me. If I could shut off the day-to-day worries, I tended to let myself daydream and imagine things I might write. To turn off even the writing part of my brain seemed, well, risky. What if I couldn’t turn it back on?
Some weeks can feel like churn: me, my laptop, email and copy. I consider myself very fortunate to spend my time working with words and getting paid for it, but like any job it can have it’s duller moments. But this week was exceptional. I left the house and engaged in interesting, thought-provoking conversations (with other people) about books and writing. I’ve met many talented writers the last four months and I love learning from them all.
One of my favorite discoveries at Aspen Summer Words (ASW) was the workshop offered to young writers ages 14-18. I had the privilege of meeting one of the participants (I’ll call her Ms. M) at breakfast the first morning and she—along with several of my fellow workshop attendees as well as a smattering of poets and novelists—became a regular part of my mornings.
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